and it died

It's funny how sometimes inspiration is short lived. The moment passes by, the mood changes, and the inspiration dies.

Being unproductive

after listening to nothing but inde music for the last few months, i had these suddent urges to listen to some mainstream muisc. I was singing Bohemian Rhapsody all day long. I listened to some Led Zeppelin, some Green Day, and a lot of random mainstram stuff

I wish this long weekend was more productive. I wasted a lot of time sleeping !

ok.. now... seriously... who farted?

You know how these people play instruments inside subway stations, and people place some money in front of them. This guy today at the Civic Center BART station was playing a violin, and I must say, it was terrible. I could barely recognise any tone changes or any melody in there. Worst public violin recital ever!

He played almost as bad as I would play.

I gave hime a dollar.

the girl in the coffee shop

fade out... fade out again
sitting behind me is my only sun
never really did she render her heart to me
fade out... fade out again
she was a sillhouette to my eyes
i dont know if i want her or if i want trouble

come on... come on now
yes sir, she's driving me crazy !
Her and her eyes
come on.. come on now
this little world is still too big for us
maybe around the corner we will meet

i feel high... i feel low
the city is so busy, and so is this cafe
the coffe fumes fill the air, so sweet is this haze
i feel high... i feel low
she held her book that she stole from her friend
I wish i could steal her glimpse from her book

lucky... oh am i lucky
it shined like a diamond between her hair
the green stone that stole my thoughts
lucky... oh am i lucky
shimmering on her hand, was it a band of love
I can sense her, in this coffe house where she sits

Attractions

Sometimes people are afraid of the unknown.
Sometimes people are attracted to the unknown
Sometimes opposites attract
Sometimes people are attracted to what they can not have
Sometimes people are attracted to what they are not ought to have
Sometimes people yearn for what they can not have
Sometimes I yearn

So long this life is

Everyone (especially me) keeps complaining how short life is. I hated turning 24. Then three things hit me:

1) a song called "So long" by the Fembots. The song is about despair and hope with the reoccuring line that goes "So long .. this life is" I thought this was just another sadistic kinda song. I could not connect myself to the lyrics at all. I loved the music, I loved the flow, I loved the vibes that the song was sending; but i just could not connect to it

2) I met this lady who spent years at stanford getting many degrees in engineering. She worked in India for a bit, then she worked in the dot com boom in the silicon valley. Then she worked as a consultant. Then she gave it all up, and opened a Craft School in San Francisco. She now teaches knitting and sewing. She told me that she misses all the money she was making, but she just wanted to do this. She told me that her grandma is 90 years old, and through her 90 years of life, she had 3 completely different professions. Then she said "Life is very long, i can do so many things, so why not"

3) Charlie Brown. Yep, i was reading "The complete Peanuts collection. 1950-1952" that I had checked out from the public library. In a couple of strips, Charlie Brown complains about life being too long. He is still a kid. He is sad that he has to survive many many more years.

Thinking about Charlie Brown, i tried to relate to the character. He is sad at moments, and at others he is a regular kid trying to play a trick on the girls. Although I don't seem to get as sad as Charlie Brown, I realize that I go through ups and downs, but yet I just complain about it like Charlie Brown. Then I had the urge to read the lyrics of the song "So long". I googled it up. I did not find the lyrics, but I found the video of the song. The video is sad, and yet it ends with hope. An old woman just breaks away from her hospital bed and just runs... and runs.. She was tired of being like that. She had this sudden jolt of inspiration of some sort. After covering points 3 and 1, I come back to 2. That lady had such a positive take on life. She is actually doing something, and not being passive like Charlie Brown or me. Impromptu, I decided to visit her craft shop. She wasn't there. She's not there on Sundays. I realized that I don't need to talk to her. Whatever conversation I had with her earlier was good enough to inspire me. Further talk might just spoil that inspiration. For the first time in my life, I actually feel inspired.

I hope i become more active in my take on life... starting NOW.

The Conservative Budget

Something good came out of the Canadian conservative government. 50 million dollars for the Canada Council of Arts. Canada council of Arts has been supporting upcoming musicians, film makers, etc. and has been doing a decent job at that. Bands like Metric, Control.Control, Broken Social Scene, are few of the many bands somehow or the other, at some point in time, supported by the council.